Who Runs This Site? Why?
Hi there, my name is Dreana and I live in New York State. I have generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety, obsessive compulsive disorder, and clinical depression. During a time in my life when I was trying to deal with this along with high school and several severe chronic illnesses that had me spending more time in the ER than at school, I resorted to self-harm for the first time. I remember the feeling of desperateness and needing to hide what I was doing from everyone, including my psychologist and psychiatrist, because I was scared. Nobody seemed to understand and I didn't want to be a financial or emotional burden to my family. Half the time I was screaming for help and half the time I was running from it. I didn't get all of the help that I needed when I needed it. While suicidal, the psychiatric ER didn't take me seriously and sent me home with a contract not to hurt myself, which I proceeded to shred before doing exactly what I promised not to. What I learned, however, is that there are many different forms of support and strength. I have been self-harm free since April 1, 2011. This site is here for people who don't have access to top notch help. Because not everyone has a psychologist, psychiatrist, or program to help them. But you can have this site and its resources 24/7 for free.
Why is it the Phoenix Project?
The Phoenix Project took forever to name, because I wanted this site and the community to have a good name. Ultimately, I chose the phoenix for this project because of the mythology associated with it. The phoenix is known as a beautiful bird, with a gorgeous song, who rises and is reborn from its own ashes. In the Harry Potter series, it is also given tears that heal wounds and an undying sense of loyalty as well as being the name of the group of people who fought against darkness and corruption. I felt these were great characteristics to represent those who are struggling with self-harm. You can rise from your own ashes and sing a beautiful song of recovery.
Why is the Website Orange? What's Up with the Fire?
Orange is the "official" color of self-harm/self-injury awareness and recovery. Of the themes available to me, this theme looked best because the fire also reinforces the phoenix theme. However, this theme can and WILL be changed if any member finds it triggering. If you are triggered by the flames, please don't hesitate to contact me.